My Death Trap

I dont even know why i care anymore.
Its a death trap, everyone knows it.
Everyone can see it..
I keep telling myself suck it up and move on...
But it doesn't work... None of it works!!
I keep moving to a happy place,
I keep turning my new leaf, but its never the same.
How many times will i do this to myself...
I've trapped myself...
& I don't even know why anymore...