I dont even know why i care anymore.
Its a death trap, everyone knows it.
Everyone can see it..
I keep telling myself suck it up and move on...
But it doesn't work... None of it works!!
I keep moving to a happy place,
I keep turning my new leaf, but its never the same.
How many times will i do this to myself...
I've trapped myself...
& I don't even know why anymore...
on grief
6 months ago
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"but its never the same"
ReplyDeletehmm, stop comparing everything to the past! thats shows you havn't succesfully moved on. thats why it seems like it doesnt work, because u still holding on to what you lost...
U have traped yourself...but u can get yourself out...
@ Eizzy, You know you are the first person to put it that way..."U've trapped yourself"...
ReplyDeleteMbe i should be asking my self if i want to let go? Heard it's a matter of will
Will? I dont agree...its not about determination and repeatedly telling yourself "I will move on, i will no longer hold on etc"(x10), because whether your 'holding onto it' or 'letting go of it' your still focused on 'IT' and so it'll always have a mental hold on your mind despite your futile attenpts of willing yourself away from it!
ReplyDeleteWhat you most resist persists...
Hon, I thought Determination = Will....
ReplyDeleteSo if you say, "What you most resist persists..." Then, have I no hope?
nah, just stop resisting...
ReplyDeletethats the true secret of letting go...you accept you have lost 'it' and 'it' is long gone in the past...and then you move on, continue life without it. experience new things, meet new people...yady yady ya